My appointment for today was canceled and rescheduled for Wednesday at 1:45. Will update then. Pamela
When I look at this picture, I am amazed at how my baby has grown up. When did he get so much taller than me? RK and Drake are my pride and joy, but do they realize just how precious they are to me? Do they realize no matter where this cancer journey takes me, they are the driving force behind all my decisions? Do they realize that when I wake up, I am thankful for another day with them? I have to remind myself that as much as I love them, God loves them more and will always take care of them. It brings me peace and settles my mind.
I am going to use this blog to do some bragging about my favorite guys. Yesterday, I witnessed my youngest son open the car door for his prom date, Penny. Last week I saw him tie for first place in high jump only to concede the win ten jumps later upon which he went over and shook his opponents’ hand. I attended parent teacher conferences at the high school where he is a national honor student to hear what a fine young man he is becoming. And I just got a text from him telling me he loves me! He is funny, caring, and a creative-thinker.
While I was lying on a beach in Florida, RK spent his spring break working every day. This young man remains debt free as he pays for his college, car repairs, insurance and gasoline, etc, etc. After working or college, he comes in my room and entertains me with stories about his day. He will tell me even more if I actually feed him! He takes obvious pride in his work and thinks highly of those he works for and with. He is smart, witty, responsible, and loyal.
I thank the Lord for my wonderful sons and ask for the love, wisdom, and patience to parent them as He would want.
Surgery has revealed that the suspicious spots were not lymph nodes but three small cancerous tumors, which were all removed. I don’t really know much more at this time. My next oncology appointment is Monday, April 28th which is when I will find out the next steps. However, Dr. Brader was correct when he said the surgery would be simple. I never quite trust that his pain level and mine are the same. I asked him pre-surgery if he let the anesthesiologist know I was neurotic and to put me out good. He said he didn’t use quite that strong of a word but did tell her that I was a “bit of a princess”. Ha Ha
While the results are a bit devastating to my family and I, I want to focus on the many positives. I was so excited yesterday to speak with Hope who was my recovery room nurse from my first surgery. She said she remembers me “distinctly” (hopefully in a good way). My luck turned even better when I found out my pre-op nurse was Nancy Gould. She was my nurse for my first surgery and she has the most gentle touch and kind spirit. She was “suppose” to get off work at 4:30 but everything was running behind and she had to work considerably longer. We really need to appreciate our healthcare workers who put in these long hours, sometimes not of their choosing. Finally, my recovery room nurse was Gina Wieczorek from Trufant. How cool is that? Her daughter was RK’s boss when he potato scouted so we had lots to chat about. I felt as though I was in great hands throughout the whole procedure.
I am thankful for those who stayed with Richard during the surgery and the prayers from so many friends. Today I am at home and have already had a beautiful nap (nothing beats your own bed) and I have no pain, which I find so amazing. I plan to take one day at a time, and today looks like a beautiful day to enjoy. Bring on Spring! Love you all, Pamela
Ps 107:1 “Give thanks to the Lord for he is good; his love endures forever.”
Tomorrow the 18th at 5 p.m., I will have surgery to remove suspicious lymph nodes in my groin at Lack’s Cancer Center. I am told this is a minor surgery, nothing like the first one, with a much quicker recovery time, so I am going to believe it. I will know the results immediately and the next steps will be figured out in the future days.
I know there are many mighty prayer warriors among you, so I ask that you pray as you are led in this situation. My family and I so appreciate the prayers and support.
Bucket List #10 – learn how to use chopsticks and eat a complete meal with them
Bucket List #24 – Try 10 different ethnic cuisines
Bucket List #43 – Travel to Florida to escape the cold weather
I completed a few bucket list items on my recent trip to Florida. Thanks to Bill W.’s tutelage, I managed to eat a complete Thai meal with only chopsticks. It was so delicious too! Only 3 more ethnic cuisines to go.
God blessed me with a fabulous trip to Florida last week. Not only did HE provide the people to accompany me and the place to stay, but He also provided the financial means to accomplish it. God is good! I was able to visit family and friends throughout the week. We made no plans but everything fell into place each day. We had perfect driving conditions (minus one incident to which the riders in my car are sworn to secrecy), beautiful weather, and encounters with the most pleasant people! Drake and I found sharks’ teeth, saw gators near our dock, and laid on one of the most beautiful beaches (Siesta Key) around. But mostly, we laughed – ALOT! My only regret is that I didn’t adopt this attitude of letting God handle all the details ten years ago!
While lying on the beach in my hat, glasses, UPF 50 long sleeved beach cover-up with a blanket over my legs (you get the picture), I realized I need to start a “Proud to be Pale” club. We could all congregate together under one huge beach umbrella. I am probably the only person to come back from Florida as white as I was when I left! I just remind myself that I will remain a “paradise woman”. My friend from Columbia said the first time she met me I reminded her of a “paradise woman from the bible”. Ha Ha. I think that is a kind way to say I am really white! Well, I am going to embrace my whiteness. Let me know if you want to join my club.
This Thursday, the 17th, I have my oncologist appointment. I am asking for prayers for discernment for the doctor and peace of mind for me. Just Pamela