Next Step

A PET / CT scan is scheduled for this Friday, September 26th to determine if the cancer has spread beyond the pelvic area.  Dr. Brader always renews my hope.  I want to hold onto the comments when he tells me the cancer may not have went beyond the groin lymph nodes, that it is a good sign that it hasn’t spread distantly yet, and that by the time it does,  there may be a new less toxic drug available for me.  Then the doubting part of me says the cancer is present in the pelvis so why wouldn’t it spread farther out, and I stress about having to deal with whatever the PET scan shows.  I feel emotionally weak and cannot imagine having another surgery ANYWHERE.  Then I reign my thoughts in and remind myself to just deal with today.  Today is a rainy, electric blanket, Netflix-watching day.  One in which my family and I belly laugh at pictures online taken of people’s reactions at a haunted house. One in which we ALL pitch in and do the chores. One in which we strategize with Settlers of Catan.  It may seem like a simple day to some, but to me it seems simply wonderful. Holding on and taking one day at a time,  Just Pamela

Ps. 118:24  “This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it”. 

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7 thoughts on “Next Step

  1. Gretchen says:

    Just for today…..just what you need. Praying and relying on God’s timing and love with you.

  2. Deb Homant says:

    Praying you get good results and peace while you wait. You are much loved!

  3. Denise says:

    You are such an inspiration Pamela! Love you and your spirit to pieces!
    Proverbs 3: 5-6

  4. Jill Gilbert says:

    Praying for a “clear” scan and strength for you and your family during this waiting period. Stay strong!

  5. Mary Ane Krum says:

    Pamela I am praying hard for you!!!

  6. Yes!!! Amen Pamela! We have today and it is an awesome day! The simple things in life are what God wants us to enjoy. Slow down and absorb what he is all about! Humbling…….

  7. Linda Van Houten says:

    Also remember you are not alone — we are all here for you and with you – lean on us as you need to and know we will always be here for you – to get through anything.

    Psalm 136:4
    to him who alone does great wonders, His love endures forever.

    And remember
    Job 5:9
    He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.

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