The PET scan is showing an area of concern in the right hip so I will have a biopsy on Friday morning to determine the reason. Thankful I could get in so quickly. Will post when I know the results. Just Pamela
I have been procrastinating with updating this blog as I don’t consider writing as my gift. However, I do want to update on my recent oncology appointment. The appointment went well, but the time leading up to the appointment was a different story. I now realize how unfounded my fears were and how “mental” I allowed myself to become. For over a week I had sudden and unrelenting burning in my esophagus along with nausea. Then I found a new suspicious area. I was sure my days were numbered! Well, the oncologist brought me back to reality. He believed the spots were scar tissue, and the burning was acid reflux. After a little Pepcid and Mylanta were prescribed, I felt like a new woman! It is a vicious cycle how physical symptoms impact my mental state and then my mental state contributes to the physical symptoms. My next PET / CT scan is scheduled for December 29th and my follow-up appointment is scheduled in three weeks to make sure the spots (hopefully scar tissue) have not changed. Please pray that I would experience a “sound mind” prior to these appointments as well as good results.
Recently, I have been reading through my journal entries from the past year. In one entry, I was three months out from one surgery and one month out from the second. In the entry I was despairing over how much pain and difficulty breathing I was still experiencing. I wrote, “will I ever feel normal again?” I continued writing about how I doubted that I would ever be able to go back to my job at school. I ended the entry “Even though I grieve, I KNOW God is good. He is in control and I trust in Him.” I am overwhelmed with gratitude every time I think about that entry. Today, I do not have pain, my breathing is perfect, AND I work full-time with good energy at a job I adore. I view every day as a gift!
“God didn’t add another day in your life because you need it. He gave it because someone out there needs you.” (love this quote but I am not sure who said it as I saw it on a placard somewhere).