While I know the signs pointed to melanoma in the femur, I still held out hope that it was a fluke on the scan. Unfortunately, the orthopedic surgeon told Richard and I that the biopsy indicated that melanoma has metastasized to my bone. He further stated that I will need the walker for at least another month until my bone is stronger. I do not know any more information, and I refuse to research it as this has not been healthy for me in the past. I will wait to hear from my oncologist to determine the next step.
This is tough information for my family and friends to absorb. As hard as it may be to believe, I feel like I am rebounding from the news much quicker this time. I have peace that God will guide me in this journey and even stronger faith in Romans 8:38 “we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love him and who are called according to his purpose for them”. While I do not claim to know in what ways He will work, I have a strong belief that He is doing and will do amazing things.
After hearing the biopsy news, I was contemplating on whether or not to return to work. I am glad I chose to go to work as it was the perfect way to get my mind off from this disease. If I hadn’t returned to work I would have missed this classic moment. One of my young students was holding the door open for me so I could get my walker through the doorway. As I was doing so, he quips “I don’t want you to crack your head open as you are the nicest speech teacher.” I really want to believe he meant the last part of his statement but he has also told me he is “allergic to pencils” so I am questioning his credibility.
My walker at school is tricked out with a seat, brakes, storage compartment, and even a hot pink princess bike bell provided by my colleagues. The bell has made me quite popular in the preschool room and encourages a lot of conversation (a speech pathologist’s dream). Of course, one preschooler had to share that his grandma has a walker just like mine. My poor vanity. All I can think is that she probably doesn’t have a cool princess bell on hers!
These are the small things that get me through the day. So I continue to take one minute, hour, day at a time.
Ephesians 3:20 God can do immeasurably more than we ask or imagine…