This morning I was soothed by the powerful words of today’s Jesus Calling devotion. It was exactly what I needed to hear. Here is a portion of it “Do not compare yourself with others, who seem to skip along their life-paths with ease. Their journeys have been different from yours, and I have gifted them with abundant energy. I have gifted you with fragility, providing opportunities for your spirit to blossom in My Presence. Accept this gift as a sacred treasure: delicate, yet glowing with brilliant Light. Rather than struggling to disguise or deny your weakness, allow Me to bless you richly through it.”
I still struggle at times with my lack of energy which causes me to miss out on certain events. I continue to work on knowing it is okay if I do not accomplish as much as I desire in a day. I needed to read these words as a reminder that even in my fatigue-laden state, that I can be used by God and can be considered a gift. Of course, I also plan to throw these words back at the guys in my family. Perhaps tonight when no one is preparing dinner, I will remind them how they have been gifted “with abundant energy” and that I need to let my “spirit blossom” while resting on the couch!
Last week I had what I deemed my “lazy woman’s sale” to rid myself of my years accumulation of school materials. I did not price anything, put the items in the garage, and left a donation jar. The best part is I played with an adorable ten month old baby inside while my teacher friends shopped and then they came in afterwards to visit. It was a lovely day and less emotional than I thought it would be. I am able to listen to them talk about the upcoming school year without sadness. God has healed me of the grief I felt at the loss of my speech language pathology work and has given me an idea for a new passion. I will reveal this idea if it comes to fruition.
I am needing to take the pain medicine more regularly now. Being a teetotaler for many years, this is quite a new experience for me to not be in complete control of my thinking. Last night after taking the meds I was determined to become a brunette to hide the roots and lessen the need for highlights. I was ready to make the purchase when a kind friend talked me out of it. My family knows to not let me make any decisions in the first hour after taking these meds.
Surprisingly, I have remained peaceful while waiting for the results of the CT scan. Today my friend Jen is coming from Lansing and we are going to make zucchini bread and then sit on my Amish neighbor Fanny’s porch and visit with her. Sounds like a lovely, “spirit blossoming” day!
My favorite verse this week: Isaiah 42:3 “A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness he will bring forth justice.”